There are a couple of things that I feel so upset about.
There is a debate about choice - choice in abortion, choice in buying things, choice in religion and freedom in love, human rights and better life etc...
But there is no choice in citizen and perhaps all the little individuals are little chess-mates that human are humiliated themselves on the rack of colourful but wasteful choices.
I am extremely upset and angry that I do not have a choice in my citizen and why is that causing my sadness? I tend to get aggressive easily by looking at all the courses that I want to study and they are not available for international student. I hate the way people are being treated unfaithfully, unfair, unclear and absurd. Thinking about the homeless and how they are struggling finding a place to sleep, and look at how people are laughing over a reality show - 'the biggest losers'.
Simplicity, I do have so much in my life that I want to do but I do not have the certainty where I can find myself freely in making decisions.
Perhaps, the endless whinging thought is distractive. Would it be better to not to think of anything? More than ever, I feel sick of the modern immorality . Let's put this way, the way Australian uses their money is just so crazy. The opportunity to expand on their own pocket is regarded as better than to live a happy life etc... and in fact, bring to them depression in the way choices are too many, consumption takes over the emotional value.
In 2013, a bowl of noodle soup is $15, compared to 2007 - (6 years ago, when I first arrived in Melbourne), it was only $8.90. It is more than 50% increase. I have barely understood what has been going on in the last 6 years. Unfortunately, there was no choice and in the market where have only 'many' choices of un-wanted, therefore, we still made the conclusion - may or may not interests be in it!
Horrifically, may or maynot that I do not need to make the choice or decision but at the end I feel that It will force me to do a final decision based on the un-wanted, un-needed purpose. Isn't that a tragic in life?
No words can express the frustration!
